on my 18 minute walk to the local grocery store, morrisons, i walked past a school, hundreds of homes, two mail men on foot, roadside workers, and many more folks going about their business. in a country of only about 5.5 million people (roughly the amount of people in the atl area) i started to think about how small my world had become. the life here is more simple, i'm content. i feel as though i passed all 5.5 million people on my one little walk. i started to think about paula, the sweet mcdonald's worker, and what seeds might have been planted by one conversation @matzka98 and i had with her. did she see the love of Jesus? i want to be intentional in every moment knowing God is with me and He can plant seeds i may never see the harvest of. who knows, but i do know that if i believe that my God is as big as i say He is and fellow believers around me believe the same... maybe 5.5 million really is the possible. maybe, it's the simple. if we all believe that our God is as big as we say He is and live according to His living word, maybe 7.6 billion is the simple task. i'm in awe of my God and desire to share Him with the world in the most loving way. i'm not always the best at loving those that are hard to love, but i want to see them the way God does. it's hard, but maybe it isn't. what a sweet walk this morning.
most people see me as confident, i am not. i try my best, but sometimes it's hard because i go into things with the biggest fear of rejection. maybe it's because the world tells us to stay to ourselves. the world tells us that people don't want our love, but they do. just today, i was rejected twice... in small things. a woman was carrying 3 bags, a baby, and a tray full of food. when i offered to carry her tray, she immediately said no and rushed off. these are small things, but the rejection in small things carries over. i got a word from a lady here in scotland. she said "God told me to tell you the word potential. if you will be confident, He is going to use you." it was an encouraging word in a time when i am not sure exactly why God has me where He does. i want to continue to be bold and confident. what a beautiful life we are living, yeah?